Anytime Now

Anytime now, Joshua should be getting slotted. I'm expecting him to go early January, but anything could happen. He could go Christmas Eve, really hope not, but whatever happens, happens. For now, every other Monday, Joshua goes into DEP Call and goes through extreme exercising for a couple of hours, to prepare for BMT (extreme because they're aiming higher than the highest achievement in BMT).

Joshua told me last night that his BMT won't be 8 1/2 weeks, like we all assumed, but instead 6 1/2. Someone from his DEP group sent a letter to inform them that the last flight for 8 1/2 weeks he was on. So that was a nice surprise.

My old classmate, Alex, just got engaged to her airman a couple of days ago. It was sweet, he proposed to her at his going away party. It must have been bittersweet for her. Newly engaged and her fiance is going away. And she has to stay here and finish school, which is responsible, but it must be saddening to be separated. Her fiance left for BMT today. I told her about the 6 1/2 weeks and that brightened her mood a lot. So I'm glad I was helpful.

Joshua asked me how I felt about "it coming up quick," aka how I feel about his BMT coming up soon. It hasn't hit me yet. I think it's going to be like when he went to DeVry 200mi away. I wasn't upset until the day before we left him up there (I was fighting tears the entire time). The biggest difference from that and BMT is this: communication. Even though he was 200mi away, I could Skype, text, or call him whenever I wanted (minus his class hours). With BMT I'll be waiting for a letter. There isn't that constant opportunity. If I'm stressed, I can't go to him. If I'm crying, he won't know. It'll be extremely lonely. But it hasn't hit me yet. I'm being the supportive girlfriend, cheering him on and smiling. I got my anxieties out early on, fears of him changing and him dying in combat (which I'll get that anxiety every time he is deployed).

But for now, when I think of those anxieties, I'm not worried. I'm happy he's going into something amazing, and will be getting an education, and will be able to support himself, as well as me. I'm getting to the point I'm excited that for the upcoming months. I'll get a ring to make our engagement official, and be planning a wedding. But for now, we are unofficially engaged. It's not official until it's on Facebook!

I'll also be moving to wherever Joshua is stationed. I'm excited for that, but also nervous. I've never been away from my mom and sisters. But excited because we'll be completely independent. I'm hoping Joshua will be stationed at Travis Airbase, which is north bay, if I recall. So it's a few hours from home, but still in the State, so family can drive to us or vice versa. And it's near the beach! We both love the beach so that'd be nice. Also it'll be nice during the first deployment to be able to take a weekend away to visit family and friends to distract from the anxieties and loneliness.