Letters to Home

I've told Joshua that I would like letters from him in BMT. One: things come up, and I'm positive he'll call his mom for the weekly call and hope I'm there. What if I can't get there, though? Money is tight, my mom's car is about to die, and Joshua's family likes to travel out of town. I would like to think for those eight and a half weeks, the once a week calls would all be met, we all be there to talk to him... But I always expect the worst, that way if it does happen, I'm not crushed. That's how I've always been, and it's not going to change for BMT.

Two: letters will give me something to look forward to once or twice a week (not sure how frequently to and fro). If I get real upset, I'll think "Well in a couple of days I'll have a letter to respond to, to talk to him." It gives me that sense of somewhat regular conversation we have now. It may not be as frequent as now, but it'll be more frequent than the once a week call. And I have a feeling when I'm really sad, I'll just write a sub-letter to him, to attach to the next letter. Writing letters is like this blog, a coping mechanism.

Since this blog looks really short and pathetic, I think I'll add a random topic that is in the news, and my opinion on it. So the topic is Todd Akin and "legitimate rape." He says pregnancy during rape is impossible because the female body realizes that it's being raped and "shuts down." Oh, how I wish it were that way! Really, I do. I wouldn't wish it on any woman to get pregnant from her attacker, but the chances are the same as a one-night fling. The egg is there no matter what, the body can't kill it if raped. Whether or not I believe in abortion, this just doesn't sound right to me. Being a woman, I know my body can't just stop an egg from being fertilized. If anything, you may miscarry from the fear of being a new mom, remembering your attacker every time you go to the doctor, seeing your attacker in your child, and worrying your child will become like your attacker. All of those stresses take a toll, and you have a chance of losing the baby. That's the only way your body "shuts down" a pregnancy. So I don't understand how Akin got to this hypothesis.